Abundant Love

"I will call upon your name, 

and keep my eyes above the waves,

when oceans rise,

my soul will rest in your embrace

for I am yours and you are mine"

The most common question Jimbo and I get asked is, "Why are you adopting- what's wrong with you?" Although I understand why this is the most obvious question to ask- it still makes my heart ache every time I have to answer, " Because we aren't able to have biological children."
When Jimbo & I first found out about our infertility, I was angry. Angry at God. Angry at myself. I was hurt and betrayed by my own body. I struggled with why God would take away my ability to bear children. Why would he deprive me of the one thing I have dreamed of my entire life? Why was my own body failing me? Why me??
As time went on, my anger and grief began to subside and understand and grace began to surface.
I began to accept our situation. My faith became stronger. I began to hear what God was trying to tell me all along.

That he chose me to adopt.

He chose me to be a mother to the mother-less.

He chose me to provide life to a child that may otherwise not get to live.

He chose me to help another mother continue to live her life that God has planned for her.

His grace abounds in deepest waters.

I may never get to feel my baby kick inside my womb. I may never get to experience watching my child grow inside of me. I may never feel those things but I was chosen to be a mother in another way. An adoptive mother. A mother who will love a child that God has chosen just for me. A child that is my own no matter how it comes to be. A child that I already love unconditionally even though we haven't met yet.

I hope by sharing my story that someday, somehow I can encourage someone else who is sharing the same situation as I am. Please join me in prayer- as I pray everyday for our future child. Please pray for our birth mother out there as she makes the most self-less and brave decision to make an adoption plan for her child.
We are deeply grateful for all of your support and prayers. Jimbo and I are so blessed by all of you.

"The adopted child. Magnificent to behold. One of a kind. Biological features often contrary to yours. Intricate roots that need to be healed. Loaded with behavioral challenges for parents, but ultimately yielding a life of unparalleled beauty."

Our adoption is coming along great. We are finished with all the paperwork(for now), home inspections, home study, back ground checks, interviews, etc!! We passed our home inspection, for those we haven't heard. So now we wait (the hardest part!!). Thank you again for your support! We love you!

P.S.- If you would like to look at our profile here is the link. This is what the birth mother looks at to choose a family for her child.