Broken is Beautiful

We are coming up on four months of waiting for Baby Hall and let me just say it does not get any easier. However I could not get through this without our awesome supportive family and my best friends. I have learned so much during this journey and this new season of our lives. Through all the pain and grief God has still shown me that JOY comes from any circumstance.

"Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy." (James 1:2)
God moves us in uncomfortable directions to discover new paths- and leave old ones behind. He has shown me that I don't have to have it all together. He loves me and my hurting heart & I must rest in him. He is working for my good even in the midst of a painful situation. Sometimes it feels as though I can not take one more step forward but then I remember that God has promised that he will go through our trials with us.

“When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you” (Isaiah 43:2)

 I have had to accept our circumstances and relearn what beauty is as far as pregnancy for me. Beauty for me is adoption. Adoption is such a beautiful thing and I am so humbled that God choose Jimbo & I for it. He has great things in store for us. I have to learn to accept the life story that God has planned for us, rather than the life story I had planned out in my head--and that is very hard for me. 

“Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls; the most massive characters are seared with scars.” 

-Kahlil Gibran

Lately certain comments have been stinging more than I would of thought. Things like "You get the easy way out by adoption" or "you're lucky you don't have to have saggy boobs or stretch marks" or "at least you don't have to give birth". These things hurt me so deeply. I know the people who say them don't mean any harm. But I would give anything to not be cursed with infertility. I would give anything to be able to give birth to a baby. And I know God chose me for adoption and that it's not a curse--but God also allows for me to feel hurt and that's the beauty of suffering. He is still working in me and I'm not perfect. I have to learn to forgive and forget and understand that these comments aren't meant to hurt me. I have been listening to this song so often lately- and I just thought I would share it :)

Love you all!